This sickening business of lurrvve...

Sickeningly sweet that is..

Came across these cute sketches [from this site ]

They are so sweet.. I think I will diabetes from sweetness overdose.. M actually hooked to them..

And came across another miracle of God..

My 2 year old neighbour who does not eat chocolate..

Now who has heard of that!!!

:)

When Adam won Eve's hand
He wouldn't stand for teasin'.
He didn't care about those apples out of season.

They say that Spring means just one little thing to little lovebirds
We're not above birds--let's misbehave!!!

-- From the Song "Let's misbehave" by Cole Porter

Watch de-lovely.. wonderful :)

Spoke speek

I love riding bicycles.
Its so refreshing

to feel the cool breeze as u ride by.




watching the sun set :)


Some more pics from the other day on the beach. (I went wearing sandals.. It was so not funny)

Simple joys

Rekindling an old flame

We met again by chance, pure chance.

It had been years since I had seen him last. Over the years I had come to believe it was a childish infatuation.
But now it feels like it was just yesterday.
I discovered I still enjoyed his quips, his witty remarks still had me in splits. I took a liking to him almost instantaneously(again).

He persuaded me to spend some time together over coffee. It was a great success.
Dinner went well too. A fun filled evening is my kind of thing. I never cared for those candlelit romantic nights anyways.

That evening, I took some time rethinking my decisions. I mean, what else does a girl want ? A witty guy who can make her laugh..

A couple of days more and I came to the conclusion. It was rather easy..

I am never letting go of Douglas Adams again.

Sunset and rainbows

Another week came and gone.. Just like that. I cant understand how time is just flying here.

Gave the pool a miss and went to the beach today.

It was lovely..

Saw a wonderful phenomena today.. Take a look at the picture below. See that faint rainbow..

It was like a rainbow cloud over there.. I guess it was just a chunk of the rainbow and the rest was hidden by cluds. But it was amazing.

Among all the kinds of landscaping Lord does, i love beaches the best. You have the breeze, the sound of waves.. ervything is just perfect...

The Gang of Gulabi Girls

I was really surprised to watch them on Al Jazeera.

This group of women(most of them havnt had proper education) is becoming a threat to wife beating men, corrupt government officials and the likes.

Read about them here.

Isnt Sampat a more deserving candidate for the Padma Award than these actors ??

She might not be as glamourous but she is actually making a difference to the lives of hundreds of women who till now had no chance of a decent life.
And not only women, even men are admitting to be indebted by her actions against the corruption in the area. It was heartwarming to listen to the testimonials of these men.

The best part was the lathi classes that these women get. Its not really funny if you think about it. But what wouldnt i pay to watch a wife beater getting a taste of his own medicine..
That too in public .. lolz

:P

The art and science of being socially tolerable

"Ohh.. auntiji .. your saari looks gorgeous.."

"What have you done to your hair.. its brilliant !"

"Is that neck piece new?? Really complements this dress."

"You're looking like that film actress."

And many more..

I suck at it myself. But I like to watch though.. Its hilarious.

Blunders

There must be 1000 ways to ruin a dish.

One of the very weird ones is that the cook's stupidity. Something I discovered by firsthand experience (yeah.. and No. its not funny)

Misinterpreted the 350 F as 350 C. If u have ever been a science student you would truly appreciate this huge huge stupid mistake. The contents of what was left in the baking dish could have easily passed as a specimen of peat and bitumen.

Phew... Anyways.. i have decided to stay away from the oven for sometime.

Decided to sketch again. Have to get attuned. Might take some time.

And ohh yes.. Got a new set of woodwork tools. Yet to buy wood. But I do luurrvveee... the set.

No more cakes

Gave up on cakes..

Made one which turned out to be just ok, a borderline case between cake and a really big biscuit. (yeah so it was not so soft as I would have liked. So what.. it tasted fine)

Turns out I am not capable of cooking dishes which require insane amounts of butter/cream and sugar. So no more cakes or puddings. Will have to do with the bakery variety.

On the other hand, i have started pastas. Just put one in the oven right now. The recipe says wait for 30 minutes.

I havnt got the patience.

Title less 1

Fact: The difficulty level of writing a blog increases exponentially as a function of the time since your last post.

Last six days are a blur now. Doesnt mean anything since my short time memory is really bad anyways. ;)

We went to this wildlife reserve this weekend. Now, I have always known that I love jungles. But this was my every jungle dream mixed into one. We rode(?) a motorized canoe sort of boat to the place. Then hiked, climbed, walked, waded,...
(Its too tough for me to describe it. I give up)
The best part was the stream. It was a lovely little meandering stream that led to a lovely little waterfall hidden deep in the jungle. We had to walk in the stream to reach there. And i could see little fishes right there in the water I was walking in. Thankfully I didnt spot any snakes. It was awesome.
There was also a pretty frightening climb. I hate heights. i am totally acrophobic. It was my worst nightmare come true. A watchtower some 50 meters high. I could feel it shaking. Believe me, I got myself out of that place as soon as possible. And I swear I could feel my legs shaking hours later.
It rained while we were coming back. Imagine a canoe with a motor and rain. It was awesome!! (the funny thing was that mom couldnt even berate me for getting soaked :D :D :D)

I have quite settled down here now. I have a routine which involves having fun, doing anything I want(which involves a lot of things) and watching sitcoms(Finished House. Why do I like watching that arrogant man?)

Have I ever mentioned how much I love grocery shopping. The thrill I feel when I find myself in a superstore almost equals to that I feel in a hardware store. Got a lot of things today. Am going to master the art of making cakes. That is my agenda for the next week.

:)

Daily pinks

Time has a different pace here.. First of all, the sun rises too early, and then there is this time difference. I have to get used to getting up on time.

Will begin going to the pool from today. I hope I can be regular.

Some pics from the garden.. :D .
Can I ever resist flower pics?? :P

Thoughts overload

Caution: Too-many-thoughts-on-my-mind alert!!

A week without net access

A week of manging a household on my own(and doing well)

A week(ohh.. ok. Just 4 meals) of self cooking.. with good results.. [experimented.. successfully :D :D]

A week in familiar surrounding.. with loads of memories.. :)

And now..

Homeward ho..

A great sunrise( it was wow.. Thank you God)

To some great times..

And now.. time for a cup of good coffee

Beginings and endings

Last night here..

I really wanted to whisk away unnoticed.. but then some part of me wanted to stay.. 

Bid farewell well.. (how can I ever leave PJs behind :D) 

but then.. those who matter.. always stay.. and those who dont, dont.

I still cannot comprehend the enormity of whatever i am doing.. maybe this is a required step in the process of growing up..

I wish good luck.. 

to all of us

to everybody 

May everybody get what they deserve.

God bless Vijay Mallya

The Indian Branson - some call him.. 

I call him an Indian. One with a true Indian heart. 

First he bought back the sword of Tipu Sultan. And now Bapu's belongings. :) :)

Frfom now on, m gonna travel kingfisher whenever I can.  

A bit of spring.. & hope

Spent a good part of the afternoon running around the so called mini golf course. 

Thats one thing at MDI that I will miss the most. I almost know all of the trees by their leaves. 

:|

The day went by with a strange sense of incompleteness. And I cannot pin point the exact reason why. I did everything I could. I guess.

Wanted to go on a panipuri trip today. Pani puri always helps :) 

Will go tommorrow. 

Tomorrow will be my last week day at MDI. And i havnt done any major packing yet. ksh will have to help me with the heavier stuff. So everything waits till saturday.

And boy oh boy. I m so excited about going home. It will be almost an year since I have been there. 

:O 

 

The girl with a stiff neck

(who also sneezes a lot)

That time of the year again.. wonderful breeze, air full of pollens.. and madhu on a sneezing spree..

Sprained my neck from sneezing yesterday ( yeah there is such a thing.  You CAN develop a stiff neck and shoulders from sneezing too hard).. The result being that I am unable to turn my neck in any direction. Its really funny though.. I turn my whole torso to talk to people.. Its like I am a puppet with the neck joint seealed stiff with too much glue. ( really bad simile.. oops i mean metaphor)

So now that I am confined to the room.. I decided to work on the pics I already had from yesterday. I need photoshop badly. I hav been searching for the sw ever since I formatted the lappie. Still havnt managed to find it.

Playing Lensman (lensgirl?.. lensperson?)

Some random shots around the campus

Mornings without newspaper

Our newspaper subscription has expired. And we are not gonna renew it now that we only have a few days left here.

I feel lost without solving the daily crossword. That is one thing I truely look forward to everyday. 

Khair.. what has to be done has to be done.

Spent  a good part of the morning browsing through some wonderful sites. (Declaration: I LOVE stumbleupon)

Planning to click some nice pics today. Started with my room :)

 This is one of my most favorite doodles yet. Liked it so much that it went right on my closet door. Cute cow. Isnt she?? 

Now go a little easy here. This is one of the frames I was talking about. Got it from the flea market near mehrauli (wonderful stuff there). I wanted to give it a pale powder blue color, but has limited colour options. Still i kind of like the effect. This one is already claimed by Rashi :)

In the making. The clour kind of changes once it dries. I have to keep that in mind next time.

And this is how they looked when I got them.

Next time, I will try for a good before-after shot. Its getting tougher working on it since I have to finish packing in like 3 days. I think I will take it home with me. Will have plenty of time there.

:)

The day I almost missed the daliya

The first word I uttered today was.. Sh*t

I was late for breakfast and did not want to miss the last day of Daliya in the mess.. 

(Luckily I didnt hav to miss it. :D) 

The day seemed to be suffering from an identity crisis. It began as a monday(got very very very very pleasant surprise) but then lost its zing. I spent a good part of the afternoon sleeping and feeling guilty about it at the same time.

The evening was lost somewhere between a longish bath and getting stuff from DC++. 

I am still feeling a bit lost. Sleeping in the afternoon has this effect on me. I like what the spanish call it - a siesta. The word sounds pretty.. doesnt it. :)

Finished an Agatha Christie today. It must hav been years since I had last read one of those. They used to be my regular companions in my teens. (Damn I am old now)

The weekend was a breeze. A very busy breeze though. But we did manage to finish most of the work.. so gud..

And yes.. enjoyed a good doze of ice cream. Almost for the first time here. 

Roznama

Good day.. Fruitful.

Made some progress on the craft project ( ilike to call it a project:) )

Spent some time in thinking and trying to find a cure for these mood swings. Seems all of them involve giving up caffiene. That wouldnt help my mood for sure :P.. But while I look for a cure, I just wish I dont do some permanent damage to things/people around me. 

So m focusing on keeping away for a while. Not really successful :)

Really hungry now. And there is something really yummy cooking in the neighbourhood. I can smell it from my room.. Smells like dum aalu.. M definitely very hungry.

My list

Life never ceases to astonish.

I found out(discovered) a fact about myself that I wasnt aware of - I cannot get bored !!

My batchmates have started complaining about how they dont have anything to do and are getting bored of watching SATC/PB/HIMYM/... all the time. 

But I dont think I have enough time to watch stuff all day. 

Got tons of stuff to do- worse.. with a deadline.. The whole day today is gonna get swaaha on that &*&^%^* project( I call it charity work)

And then I start with the woodwork. Some weeks ago I found these beautiful wooden stuff at a local kabadiwalah store. Rusted nails, a bit chipped and old.. its perfect. 

Bought the supplies yesterday - sandpaper, varnish, paint, brushes, thinner, etc..( i love hardware stores) .. 

:D

I am so very excited about this. 

I hope they turn out to be good.

Then I have the guitar. I realized I have to be really busy if I want to pick up guitar.. I cant play if I dont feel rushed.. 

And the mammoth scary task. Driving school. I hate the thought of driving. I mean I have taken the lessons once and I even have a valid licence. I know how to drive.. but as soon as I go out on the road , some uncanny force makes me freeze. Delhi roads are bad. But it is a fear that has to be faced. Will have to go there tomorrow. :|

And yes,.. then there is more to do- shopping!! But thats for weekends. :D

Miss Treat

Thats the role I played today.. :)

And you know what.. It seems I will  eventually remember the good journeys. Endings maybe irrelevent :)

I hope so.

Walking down the memory lane

It is a fact that as thinking human beings, we like to reminisce about things past.

Now, tell me one thing.. When you think about old times, is the impressions in your memory clouded by the concluding chapters, the goodbyes? 

Now suppose a good friendship ended on a bad note.. 

If after 5 years you suddenly catch yourself thinking about the whole affair - how will you think about it? What do u think will stand out in memories - the good journey or the bad ending?

Is it really - Only that is well that ends well?  

And the bell rings..

Just finished the last report of the last term..

It feels so..... good !!

And i feel hungry.. Happily hungry :)

..

...

me:  suggest a gud song

 Helmet:  what if god was one of us

 me:  ajite

i believe God is in evry one of us

 Helmet:  maddyyyyyyyy.. that is a song

me: oops

..

The eve

The day starts as a typical sunday..

Morning paper with a cup of coffee ( yeah .. i am back on coffee.. it feels soooo gooohhddd)

Afternoon transformed it into the typical day before exams.. 

Trying to find out the syllabus

Frantically jugadofying and photocopying of ppts

Evening of highlighting and Post Its

:)

Bottomless nights

(Like bottomless glasses)

Working late usually means working till 1 or 2 at night. 

However, as the end of the term nears, the boundaries keep expanding. 

Just back from a snack break. 

Nowhere near sleeping time.

Ever welcomed the morning before going to sleep??

Will miss this too.

happy alright

"All our young lives we search for someone to love. Someone who makes us complete. We choose partners and change partners. We dance to a song of heartbreak and hope... all the while wondering if somewhere, somehow, there's someone perfect... who might be searching for us."

- quoted from The Wonder Years

But how do you know whats perfect for you? 

or is perfection too much to ask for ?

(p.s.: Of course it is too much.. As if I were perfect) 

The last lecture

It was a strange feeling..

I didnt know if I was happy or sad. or both?

And its our good luck that our last lecture was taken by the two best professors here. My love for both has surpassed for any other yet. Helmet says its the grey hair effect. I beg to differ. Being nice is so effortless for them. 

They are the only ones whose back to back lectures didnt scare me (and thats a lot)

I feel(and behave) like a kid in front of them..

Hmm.. khair.. 

It was the last lecture of MDI as well. We wont have to attend lectures anymore(though we have projects and assignments left)

No more attendanace issues

No more proxies

No more rushes for the last bench

No more quizzes

No more DCP and ACP

No more ppts and RG

No more sleeping in the classes

No more pretending to be taking notes and doodling instead

No more 15 minutes break when 5 people eat a single samosa

Gosh.. M going to miss classes

Learning to live artfully

Yeah yeah..

After years of thinking about it, I finally enrolled for an Art of Living program. 

The aim being attaining enlightenment, I think the course is gonna help me after all. See, just joining it make my purse lighter by 1500/-. 

:D 

Jokes apart, the course is good. I am just 2 days into it and I am no longer skeptical as I initially was. 

It is certainly tough(tougher than tough) to follow all the rules. Apart from other things they include - no tea or coffee !!! For an entire week.. 

Believe me, you have no idea what that means. Even I had no idea I was so severely addicted. My first 24 hours without my cuppa made me mad. By evening I was so lethargic I could sleep standing. 

But after the session I was definitely better. And today :D :D I am as good as on 2 cups.

Yesterday out of desperation I tried this mint herb tea(they allow you herb tea). 

Very very bad experience. 

Mint flavoured herb tea should be banned.

Towards ending of a chapter

Its happening again..

When the time comes for me to leave, I tend to cling like a baby monkey, to whatever comes in my way. I turn into this emptional fool and subject myself to hurt and pain. And baby this hurt remains even after parting ways.

For the past one and a half years, I kept on repeating that I absolutely hated this place. And now, I begin to notice things I love, people I have started to depend on, those I am going to miss.. And I am scared.

I can see the patterns emerging this time around as well.. But now that I know, will I be able to contain myself and not go bersek ?? 

I will definitely try. Lets see..

Quarter century :)

The day started with my face in the cake (and vice versa) :D 

And as they say.. nothing's like a midnight head wash.. 

Very very rushed morning, rumours of an impending quiz took me to class and confirmation of no quiz promptly took me out of it..

Followed by a happy, loving, laughing (tiring) day.. 

And the perfect dinner - prepared by mukta(i tried to help, burnt a paratha, was confined to cutting up vegetables :D) 

Company of good ol' friends is the best happyfying(remember this word??) thing in the whole world.. (and today i confirm officially: I have missed a lot lot of good people at MNIT. Why didnt I meet them before??)

And believe it or not, the day ended with work - a submission!! 

So here I am. Older and wiser(??) 

And I wonder.. am I anywhere nearer to the answers to these life altering questions - What is the purpose of life, What makes us different from each other , when did it all begin, when will teleporting be a reality, 

and 

whats for breakfast tomorrow.. 

Many many happy returns of the day :)

..

And yes, I forgot to mention.. 

Got my first gift of this year.. Its so thoughtful.. Touched :)

And though I really feel bdays are awkward and bothersome, I am kind of looking forward to it.

I havnt even decided the dress.. :|

Hope things go smooth. 

:)

The Henna files

I have always been a s**ker for henna.. I absolutely love(crave?) the smell of henna on my hands the first thing i notice when i get up.. its heavenly..

Its one of those things which make me feel so girly :) 

That day I got a compliment(comment ?) that i looked like a girl from head to toe. Now I really dont know what to make of it. She refused to explain further.. Anyways.. I dont mind. ha

And i got these ultra comfy pair of harem pants today.. 

Had always wanted one :D. Ever since that dance in 8th std. Thats an awefully long time to have waited for something. And I also got henna put on my hands. Will post a pic when i wash it off..

Now, if you have ever seen a typical Delhi/NCR bazzar, you would know how these henna artists put up their shops right on the side walk. You sit there, near the road,with all that croud buzzing past you. Normally you become one of tthem and dont pay any attention to the croud around you. But today I did.. and suddenly all those figures in the croud became real people, with  real lives and problems. 

It was a bit disturbing.

The joys of black and white

Only those who have actually experienced it can understand the joys of reading.

A good read makes one forget everything around them, everything past, persent or future and engulfs them into a world of its own. 

And this book.. I love it so very much that i dont want to finish it too soon. 

With every new chapter it goes into a new untouched area of female psyche and takes the reader along. 

It fills me with so much rage and anger towards all those men. 

Cute

 From somewhere on the net

o_O

This kick boxing thingie.. 

I had always thought its easy to kick a stupid sandbag.. But no.. the moment i planted my first kick it acquired a life of its own. That inert innocent looking bag began swaying and twisting and turning. 

I swear it tried its best to evade my kicks (attempts at kicking that is)

And then it tried to attack me. I positively guarantee it tried to kick me back.

I dont like people(things) who hate me. So, I lost all my interest in it. Went ahead to the faithfull treadmill. It hasnt ever tried to throw me off ever.

I m never going back to that stupid sandbag again!!

- Why do we feel it's necessary to yak about bullshit in order to be comfortable?
- I don't know. That's a good question.
- That's when you know you've found somebody special.

When you can just shut the fuck up for a minute and comfortably enjoy the silence.

-Pulp Fiction

:) ha

Each item completed.. :)

Some additionals attempted and done really nicely (shopping.. mm :) )

The only thing left was kick boxing. We have this new sandbag in the gym. I have to try it out.

I have always fantasized how it feels.. Dont know why, but i think I will b a natural in kick boxing.

Am I right?? Will know tomorrow.. 

:) smiles sleep.. 

Genda phool

And others..

Girl left loose on a sunday. All alone. And she's gonna make the most of it. 

Yep. Agenda for today : To turn this ordinary sunday into one of those Goddess of all-the fun girl-pamper yourself-listen to your favorite bad music at full volume-sundays..

Yippie.. 

Had a good full yum breakfast. Give me mayo any day and i lap up the food like a hungry kid. God, i love food. I love eating it, talking about it, making it and yes fantasizing about it. I have always maintained that I was born to be a food critic. Damn, I landed up in the wrong profession. Sigh..

My morning cup(mug) of coffee with newspaper.. I cant even explain how lovely it feels. Sundays cause me to finish the boring drab main paper asap and get to my favorite part - brunch. 

Well today they talked about makeup among other things(like the history of biriyani. Reminder for my next birth: Become a food critic with a good knowledge of food history).

yeah so makeup is what I read about. I was astonished by the details they got into. You know I have always thought about makeup being an intelligent art. The way you paint a picture, one has to know about shades and all.. So i think a good painter will be a good makeup artist. She will know what shade you apply where and in what quantity to make a long nose appear shorter(or whatever is in vogue thse days). The thing which scared me today was that they have separate makeup stuff for forehead, nose, and take this.. jawline.. !!

What is with people these days.. And I thought separate makeup for upper and lower eyes was the epitomy of makeup freaks.. 

Anyways.. 

Aah.. lazy sundays.. 

Friday is the fries day

Another weekend. 

And m totally vella this time. Seems unnatural. M actually at a loss, what will I do with so much time.

Got two books. Began reading this one called - Yajnaseni (pronounced as Ya-gya-se-nee). Its mahabharata from the eyes of Draupadi, also known as Panchali and Krishnaa. 

In mythology, women have always been wronged, cheated, treated unfairly and of course respected for going through all this. 

Sati, Ahilya, Mandodari.. 

Goddess Sita - after going through the pain of being abducted and tortured by the hands of the evil Ravana, her chastity was questioned and none other than her own husband made her go through the agnipariksha. 

And then there is Draupadi - The beautiful. Her birth was for a purpose - to avenge her father. The world remembers her as the woman with five husbands or worse, as the woman who caused mahabharata. 

Pause. Think for a while. Right from the begining, draupadi was the wronged one. First, she had no say in her marriage. She wasnt consulted before getting married to the five pandavas. Her husbands put her on stake, lost her and remained mute spectators while the Kauravas humiliated her. It was her love for lord Krishna which saved her, not her mighty husbands. 

And in the end, when she could not keep up the pace and fell while coing to the himalayas with her husbands, not a single one of them looked back. 

And to say she had five husbands.

Did it :)

After months and months of planning

preparing myself

deciding and then deciding against it

i finally did it

:)

But, not without the ususal dose of nautanki :|

After the first piercing 

I fainted

then puked (eeww)

and then

like a true brave girl

went for the second one 

:D

:D

I hope it doesnt pain tomorrow

The weekend in pics

The Corbett Safari

:) 

Just checked in after the long long long weekend.. 

It was fun, it was adventurous, it was exciting.. 

It was.. Jim Corbett :)

Will post some pics soon. The better ones will take some time -they are on the other camera. Ohh and yes.. I loved the SLR. 

The saree day

Ohh how I love a good productive day..

Got up, did some yoga(m getting pretty regular now :) ), attended classes (all 3), went to sector 14 and then.. 

attended Uma's sis' reception.. wearing a saree..

It must have been what.. three years since i wore it last.. I really love the dress. One feels so feminine and.. decked up, even if its s simple saree.. 

Feeling nice is one thing, however managing to wear it is a different thing altogether. If somebody asks me about the decor of the place, i will be clueless because all the time I was trying really hard not to trip over on my own dress.. I am sure I caught one or two aunties eyeing me in a funny way. I felt like a spaz.. 

:)

I want to buy one really soon.

Ignorable crap

Getting up was so tough today.. 

Hectic weekend ahead. And I am worried again because nothing is planned yet.

And its surprising and unbelievable but we still have lots of work to do.. 

:)

Started poga seriously.. 

And relief

finally

thank God.

and everyone who wished well.. 

thank you

Right said

Butterfly effect: An obscure american refuses to repay his mortage loan; My placement gets screwed

May destiny keep us warm

Hold up
Hold on
Dont be scared
Youll never change whats been and gone

May your smile (may your smile)
Shine on (shine on)
Dont be scared (dont be scared)
Your destiny may keep you warm

Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
Youll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Get up (get up)
Come on (come on)
Whyre you scared? (Im not scared)
Youll never change
Whats been and gone

Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
Youll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
Youll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Were all of us stars
Were fading away
Just try not to worry
Youll see us some day
Just take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out

- Oasis

There shall be laughter after pain..

Finally..

Friendly advices make their way through to this stupid head of mine. 

I realize thats its not "my fault", that it is not happening to "only me" and it will not be like this "forever"..

I also realized that my biggest fear is of being judged. 

But when I really thought about it, I remembered that people who matter wont mind a bit, and those who mind dont matter..

Decided: Monday night - I will start looking for alternatives. I'm sure there will be some. 

Or else, I will make some!

Felt a lot better today.

God bless us all.

have seen better days

Never ever even in my darkest nightmares had I thought it would be like this..

Its like the gloom is in the air and weighing down our souls with every breath. Insane.. 

I cant bring myself to write, read, do anything meaningful.. funny movies dont help us anymore.

Even Sun doesnt work for long. 

Times change.. They did. And not for good. I am ready to bet anything that we are the best brains they ever had(or will have for a long time). We have everybody's word for that. 

I hope times change again. Soon.

Damn it. Why us?

Blue sky

Clear blue skies for as far as my eyes could see ( no tall bildings in sight)

Green meadows with cottages (and white wooden fences)

A narrow clear road (strictly for farm vehicles)

A creek

A bicycle

Ignorance is bliss

Another week begins.. 

I had a good weekend this time. Quiet and easy.. 

I discovered that I cant watch difficult(sad, heavy) movies anymore. I just cant see people suffering. Even when I know its not real. So all that is left for me to watch are stupid sitcoms and romantic chick flicks (which is not so bad).

I need some feel good stimulants. We all do. 

Nothing wrong with that. right??

And it was nice to know that poeple noticed :)

When everything else fails...

Sunlight helps

so does some wandering around.. looking at flowers, listening to kids

And a good read

Help yourself. Please..

Judging people leads to bad things. bad bad bad things.

Especially if you are upset yourself. Or if you are never in your right mind anyways.

It makes you sadder, bitter, angrier and of course it makes you lose your friends. Its like digging a hole around yourself and feeling really intelligent doing it.

I hope you realize this and help yourself.

Because nobody else can do it for you..

It felt unfair not to mention this

I finished this book Eat Pray Love today..

A truly wonderful book by Elizabeth Gilbert. One that should be read by every woman who is in pain - to know that it is possible to end it; who is happy - to know how to multiply it manifold by spreading it around. 

And why it is a good idea to believe in oneself.. 

And why it is even a better idea to not let life bog u down by its intricacies. 

So, here I am, trying to smile in my liver.. 

(by the way.. I was kind of reluctant to write about this. My writing skills are hugely inadequate to do justice to this book)

The one with all these I's

I hate it when people act like such jerks.. So self involved that you cant even see that you are being unfair.. 

And just because I hate them so much, I have decided not to be one like that. :) 

I so hope that I succeed.

And also, I have to work on my anger. I keep getting these bouts of anger from time to time. And it takes a while to cool down. The worst thing is that even though my stupid brain does not remember much of the relevent stuff, it does remember all the stuff that it is not supposed to. And so, the idiotic small person me keeps getting angry at old stuff.. and thats just silly.

I hope I improve.. 

I should have it as a resolution. :) haha

I am also seeking a quiet place for a while now. I think I need to meditate. Too many stray thoughts, need to calm down and breathe freely.

(p.s. I have decided to not treat 2009 as a new year.. 

I mean, I am just going to wish its better. Thats all.. otherwise I might get my hopes all high and I hate to see them crash..)

woo hoo

:)

best of luck

We sing, we dance, we (dont) steal things

:)

Year end approaching. 

Good.

Foggy Foggy Day

The most foggy day i have ever seen yet.. the most.. I mean there wasnt any scope for more fog.. 

It is awesome.

Gonna post pictures. Later

Year of the rat

2008 is coming to an end..

It has been a really funny year.. really ajeeb. unexplainable..

Started sad.. went down even lower.. 

and then when I had almost given up all hope on life I landed in Mumbai..

got surprised, surprised myself, lost sense, found sensibility..

Times after that hav mostly been disturbed by external events.. 

And now m living in a strange world. almost unimaginable for somebody who grew up shielded from terror and economic uncertainty. 

Ha

and it was supposed to be the year of the rat.. same as my birth year.. 

Bakar

Once upon a time there was this small hamlet called Roseville.

A happy place where poeple lived farming, tending to their sheep, growing flowers and fruits.. 

The kids had ample of space and time to play. The women had enough time to gossip naughty tid bits at the village well and enough sensibility to not be malacious. The men liked to sing and dance. 

A happy community.

Then they heard of the nearby village being ravaged by a two faced monster called recession. The happy people got scared. They went to the village elders. Maybe they could help.

The elders listened to their problems. Smiled a little and said - Do not worry children. This monster only attacks the greedy and shortsighted ones.

End of story

Homesick :(

Another Christmas approaching.. With the Happy New Year not so far ahead. 

New Year eves hav always been special for me.. 

All four of us sitting together, cooking, eating, talking, laughing.. Enjoying the togetherness.. 

Wonderful experience. Sacrosanct. 

I used to shut out everybody else.. No calls taken, none made. 

yeah .. not even B'day wishes :)

And I dont regret that at all. 

Sadly I wont be that lucky this year.. :| 

Dont know what to do..

Damn it. Last time it happend I was in final year of college.. and we made it up with celebrating it later.

Anyways.. I was thinking of a new year wishlist.. Will keep on adding items to it.. 

1. Please make this slowdown go away.

2. A little peace. No attacks. (or wars)

3. ..

Eat.Pray.Love

Sunshine

Coffee

Music

A good book

A fight later

The thoughts in my mind today cannot be expressed in words..

More apt to be expressed as a melody than in any human language. And since I cant read or write music, I will try to explain it. 

Its a symphony

Begins with some vigorous violin

Piano

Drums

Some electrical music

A happy din

Which slowly turns into soft music.. with beats.. yeah beats..

Never ending.

Weekend was a breeze. Got the perfect pair that I was searching for.. Had the yummiest cheesecake.. 

and a good time.. more like a gud tyme. 

:D

Why so scared ?

You know, one ideal role for me would be - playing cupid.(I said role.. !) 

Its a good position. Work would be highly satisfying (yeah). 

The in hand component would not be very high, but the benefits are great.(good opportunity to learn flying)

Work environment is good. (golden bows and arrows)

And the work is highly challenging. Very tough actually. Lots of obstacles.

Fact 1: Majority of the girls have a soft corner for a guy who professes his feelings for them.

Fact 2: Majority of the guys get scared ****less at the very thought of proposing a girl. The strong type merely experience profuse sweating ,increased hearbeats and an unexplainable stammering which eventually turns everything they say into incoherent rantings. Others avoid the girl with a 200 yard stick. 

Fact 3: The girls hate it when the guy acts cowardly - the pining-lover-who-doesnt-say-anything type. 

See.. lots of obstacles.. A really challenging job indeed.

Inference - If you like someone - go and tell them. Will make the job easier. 

:)

another list

cheesecake

and hugh grant..

yeah.. thats what..

Of flicks and dropped candies

;)

Imperium got over.. 

So did Eleusis..

And thats that.

And.. once again we launched a mission to find a perfect pair.. didnt :) Found an awesome sweater for him instead.. Good find. 

What else.. good dinner.. Really good one actually. 

The best thing - Laughed a lot. 

And then.. yeah, as the title says - some flicks and dropped candy beans.. ;)

Quiz, dance. tambola, dance, run

Tonight I danced in the best discotheque 

having the best ambience

the best lighting 

Under the stars..

Totally champu songs - the hawa hawa and chhamma chhamma types 

yeah.. Just another thing that you cant do anywhere else but in college :D

oh no I am not getting sentimental.. 

But.. yeah. i will sure miss it.

And I played the quiz master today. Another first for me.. :)

An easier set of questions would have suited the teams better. I thought I was easy already. 

Anyways.. it went fairly well.. Will sleep happliy now.

For now that is. Tomorrow is another day.

Lots to do.

Living every moment

Actually, I have observed that in such situations, I live in the moment.

Planning for very very short term..

Risky.

But effective.

And then..

There are people who talk

there are people who listen

and there are people who keep on talking

Why dont they ever understand.. 

SHUT YOUR PIEHOLES !!

glub lub ub b..

I fell asleep in the library today.. ( for about 3 minutes)

Not a fact that I am proud of.

But I was tired. Really tired.

And m tired now. Wanna sleep. 

Deadlines

"I love deadlines. I like the whoosing sound they make as they fly by."

Douglas Adams

Phew.. And the worst part is that there seems to be no cool down period till end of december !! 

A sunday spent the way it should be spent

So how did I end up here?

Really.. how?

First of all let me state that I have come across some ultimately extraordinary people in my life. Somehow MNIT was full of them. There are a few (few) here too.. 

Now these are really talented, intelligent and thoughtful people. Those who have a mind of their own, and are capable of having genuine opinions and thoughts. 

But somehow, most of them (us??) are unsatisfied with their lives. Its not what we wished for and wanted. What went wrong? 

Did we dream beyond reality, or am I being too hasty in passing judgements? maybe in the longer run things will be as they are supposed to be. 

Everybody gets what they want..

yeah, right !! o_O

By the way.. I just came back from a 5 hour shopping trip. fruitless. Couldnt find a single pair that fits. Damn it. Just got the shoes today.

Most of the stores simply dont believe in storing formal wear for women! 

Shameless pigs !

Once

We did not eat in the restaurent with the lily leaves..

And he left early in the morning.. didnt get to see the beach in sunshine.

Bring back Shin Chan

Stanley Kubrick

Rubick's cube

Six sides of a die

Chinese checker

Chopsticks

Monk's

Expensive

Clean

lyzol (!)

RB

P&G

Head and Shoulder's

Dandruff

Bacteria ( Fungus??)

Lacto bacillus

Curd

marinate (yum :) )

Chicken

Food

Calories

Diet

Diet (parliament wala)

Japan (? pukka?)

Shin Chan (Bring him back)

Hm.. Bring back shin chan. Please..

If u think its not suitable for kids, then give him an 'A' ka rating..

I will miss him :(

..

Post exams emptiness.. Lots of work to do. But the momentum's missing :|

The new term begins on Monday. Doesn't feel so though. I still have to clear out last term's notes from my folder. I think I am going to stick to my loose pages notes practice. Feels grown up. yeah right.. I know I border on being totally nuts..

Watched a really stupid movie yesterday. Surprisingly enjoyed it. Not bad for a 4.6 on IMDB. And that is the first time I ever liked high cheek bones on a guy. He looked great. I guess that's where the business suit wearing semi-mobster look originated. :)

And yes.. we have almost dropped the idea for now. Arpita said it pains more in winters. So, later.. I gave it a lot of thought and found that I am not even sure I am going to like it. I guess I just want some change.. hehe.  But for now,  no piercings.. 

The decision to not go out for dinner was a conscious one. I know they are innocent. But, I just couldn't think of a reason to go. Tath is different. I know her. That's not the case here. I cant stand indifference anymore.

Daily ritual now: Pick up the newspaper, get even more angry and frustrated, throw it away.

Strike five

Over with yet another exam..

yet another term..

And that means 5/6 ..

Mood still not at its best. I believe we should declare war. If not now, then when?

And yes.. a silent tribute to those innocent people who lost their lives..

Tea with milk and a pinch of satire

Excellent lesson.. 

One of the most useful. (I hope I dont have to use it ever)

While I sip this cup of tea,

somewhere around - 

anger resides,

pretension thrives

memories of good times fade into a grey cloud

people joke and laugh

with anger within

smiling..

What more now?

Really disappointed..

She was right after all..

Nobody is a friend here.. You just have acquaintances.

Both sides

Tears and fears and feeling proud
To say I love you right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
Ive looked at life that way

- Joni Mitchell'se 1969 song "Both sides now"

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And yes, despite all the guitar and songs and music around... I still have to write today's comp and ben paper. 

Yup exams still on.. :|

The day I nicked a guitar

Acquired : A six string

Learnt: sa ra ga ma

mastered: mmm .. nothing yet :D

And..

Chelsea lost :(