Tuesday, May 26, 2026

Just like meeting old friends

On our last trip we spent a few days among people who are far removed from the modern world. No internet, not even a cell signal. And what I saw was so refreshing. Kids playing outside(in freezing cold btw), women working relentlessly while laughing and singing. Men building houses and working on the farms while smoking pipe. Everybody joined in for a game of cards in the evening, the kids were playing impromptu cricket (yes, cricket, even up there). They even included the local deity in the game (the temple door was the wicket lol). Every house looked out to the valley, so that when the clouds started wafting in, everyone knew it was about to rain. 

There was so much beauty, all around, excess of it. And the people were not bothered at all. Blissfully unaware. Although I understand the concept of object permanence, but it is so difficult for me to imagine that all that beauty, the joy, and carefreeness, the sounds and smells, the small maggi shack near the waterfall... they are all still there. Sheru - the shaggy dog who followed us throughout the trek is probably following someone else. We were just another blip in their lives, even when they have left an indelible mark on ours. 

Will it be the same if I ever went back there? Probably not. 


Wednesday, April 22, 2026

I need better coping mechanisms

You know how sudden changes in elevation messes our systems. So we are advised to keep taking breaks during any mountain trips. As we recently discovered, unfortunately through a first hand experience, the same thing is true with hot springs too. Take it slow while getting in the water, AND while getting out of it. Like, get out one foot (12 inches) of your body at a time and give it like 5 minutes per iteration. Anyways, I digress.. 

So what i was planning to talk about is that a sudden exodus of people does something weird to the atmosphere. Suddenly 50% of the family members are travelling and I have already lost my mind. There is soooooo much to do. So much packing and planning. But have I started yet - No. Am I about to start it - also No. 

But what I have started is a new giant project that I absolutely cannot afford to complete before we leave. A project that I started at 11 yesterday.  

So, our drawing room is without a lamp and the living room is my temporary studio. And I have 3 very different ideas that I equally love. Hence, a standstill. Sorry.

Thursday, April 16, 2026

Early bird gets the worm

They say our music choices are set by our 20's and thereafter doesn't really change much...certainly true in my case. 

And not just the music, I even miss the band names. Compared to the tame (and PC) sounding names of today, I miss the colorful whimsical names that were.. Toad the wet sprocket, Death Cab for the cutie, Panic! at the Disco.. whew

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I realized I do not have any lasting solid habits. I am not an early riser, not a person who does chores as soon as they come up (I wait for them to ripen lol..), not a person who is really principled about what or how often she eats, I am totally cool with staying up late to finish a book or series... you get the idea. Am I still redeemable.. Is this something that needs to be addressed?

Monday, April 06, 2026

Books are the secret of my crazy

I love the vibe of libraries. Also, libraries invite the best kind of people. 

Also, I am happy to report that today I finished an entire book in one sitting.

=)

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We are trying to (supposed to) be training for the upcoming trek. But, so many things are happening all at once. I hope it goes well. 

I am super excited nonetheless. 

Fingers crossed.

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The kids are getting better at tricking us. Dont know whether I should be relieved or worried.

Saturday, April 04, 2026

My cabbages !!

Warmest welcome to the newcomer in the family. mmuuaahh...

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I love how versatile cabbages are. And yummy. I am currently in love with dumplings in cabbage leaves.

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I dont really have any words for everything that is going around in the world right now. Not only is it despicable, but also inexplainable. I am flabbergasted by the lack of reliable information that is coming out. Horrible and confusing times to be in.

Wednesday, March 04, 2026

Filters through foliage

Komorebi 

a Japanese term describing the dappled, sunlight-filtering effect of light passing through the leaves of trees, often creating a shifting pattern of light and shadow


In these times of incredible chaos everywhere... and pretty much all the time, I yearn for simple pleasures.. like these. To be honest, any sort of light filtering through foliage has a soothing effect on me. I didnt know it was a universal thing. And that is why the existence of "komorebi" made me smile. The fine people of Japan, the land of people so appreciative of arboreal beauty that they have a whole art form dedicated to it (and also a festival). Those people who enjoy the same simple pleasures as I do, are they also perturbed by the same troubles as I am? Do they also dread the destinations that are inevitable on the dangerous path the world is travelling on. Do they also lament the loss of simpler times? 

I am deeply interested in knowing what lifts their spirits, because I might be in need of some lifting up too.

Yes, also, Happy Holi.

Wednesday, February 11, 2026

Lessons in patience

That is what I got during the last fortnight. Involuntary lessons of course, as real life lessons often are. Anyways, as long as I learnt something.

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Spring is in the air, and also in our garden, which is blooming :)  The seaweed extract is working well. Definitely recommended. 

BTW apparently this year the summers are going to be Scorching!! Lets see.

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My social calendar is totally packed till May. How did this happen. I thought the year had just started. 

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Friday, January 23, 2026

Jukebox of favorite junk

Random songs keep popping up in my head at random times. Like a jukebox in a diner, it keep running in the background, through silence, through conversations, through work, sometimes sleep too. I think it happens with most people. Not with K though, but his brains work in very different ways. 

Anyhow, so these random playlists of mine keep shuffling up. But some songs are ever favorites. In fact, there are songs/jingles that are played at least once everyday. And sadly, for me at least, they are total trash. I didnt pay much heed to when, how or why they crept into my permanent song collection, but they are there. Often with made up lyrics too. It doesnt make any sense. This is my attempt to list them (just for records, I am incredibly ashamed of and embarrassed by this list. But for the sake of honesty....)

- come on come on o Kamachi (something like this. I guess this is a dubbed song from the mid 90's)

- ao sikha dun, tumhe ande ka funda.. (usually while prepping for kids' school)

- 90 thousand red balloons (i dont even remember what is the original number in the actual song)

- lassi pissi o coo coo cola ( lol.. this is a dubbed song from chip and dale show. Again from the 90s. I am sensing a pattern here :)

- break my stride


I guess this list will come in handy when I finally go and see a therapist for complete and total insanity.


Tuesday, January 20, 2026

Which street?

 Hello! in the new year. I guess it still counts as new since this is the first entry.

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Something amazing happened today. V was quite excited to tell me about this song from a group called backstreet boys that he learnt at dance today. And he asked, "Mom do you know this song?". He looked so impressed when I was able to recall the entire song from memory right then and there. Lol, the kids these days don't know the pain(and the hidden joys) of waiting for your song on the radio, or MTV, with notepad in hand and noting down whatever lyrics you could understand. So anyway, we looked at the video together because the choreography on this song was quite nice. He was surprised again when I told him the song was older than youtube. 

I was labeled ancient once more and enjoyed every bit of it.

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Returned from the trip last night. Still under a bit of the daze. 

Wednesday, December 17, 2025

Buttons

Its funny how I never get down to write about the mundane things that have become the norm. Like blinkit, gpay and the likes. 

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Winters are keenu juice season. Frankly, it is one of my most favorite beverage. But only when I am not the one making it :)

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V is also super into chess now. He has been at it for about a year now. Plays blindfold and wins :| . He even got T interested in the game.. so yay

They are also playing cricket a lot these days. Some nights we all play together. They make me the kacchi poori 

Friday, December 12, 2025

What winters?

In the world of hyper targeted content flying towards us from every direction, the subtle loses out. 

Among other things, this has stifled the genesis of tangential thoughts and ideas in us. So less of butterfly effects and more of ramifications.. lol. I read somewhere that entertainment has ceased to be entertainment and is instead becoming tailored propaganda. It would be even more so with on the fly AI generated content soon to hit our screens. 

It feels like I am lamenting a bit too much these days.

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Last months was so so busy - social engagements wise. And the new year season is approaching, so more to come...wooh

In other news I wish to be off shopping for a while now. Well at least for the next two months. Fingers crossed. 

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I was able to propagate 7 bougainvillea. So yay :)

Tuesday, October 21, 2025

Seasons greetings

T made yet another attempt at growing tomatoes a couple of months ago. Obviously he planted the seeds and promptly forgot to tend to the saplings, a job that fell upon me :). 
So, a couple of strong looking saplings grew well and tall, grew flowers and then started an aphid farm on their person :p. All my attempts to get rid of the aphids were dud and i tried everything possible that does not involve pesticides, because of course I wanted organic tomatoes. So long story short, one day i had to get rid of the plants altogether. No tomatoes grew.
Now, last week I spotted a bunch of random tomato plants, growing on a heap of stones, with nobody to tend to them. And they have such nice strong tomatoes growing. I hate them now.
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Diwali went great. It was fun to burst some crackers after such a long time. V actually enjoyed them a lot. Next year we'll def do more :)

Monday, October 06, 2025

Playing catch up with words

A while ago I read this quote - "... I will love you as misfortune loves orphans, as fire loves innocence and as justice loves to sit and watch while everything goes wrong. I will love you as a battlefield loves young men ..."

The quote is from Lemony Snickets.. In its entirety it is perfectly suited to the dark themed kids book. but this particular excerpt, it sounds... vector. It perfectly describes the sheer intensity as well as the underlying sinister energy. See.. magnitude and direction. 

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Poem recommendation - I Still Forget We’re Not Even Friends

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"You are a language I am no longer fluent in but still remember how to read" - Ashe Vernon

Sunday, September 28, 2025

Catching lines

I am currently in the reading room of the place we are staying at. I can see outside as the sun sets. I can see a hundred boats if not more. 

 

As the sun sets and darkness comes, the boats are turning their lights on one by one. By now they  resemble a hundred gems shimmering on the wavering carpet of the sea. 

I feel content reading this wonderful book in here. Savoring every minute of it.

Sunday, September 07, 2025

Say Butter

I managed to finish "butter" a while ago. It was a difficult read in many ways. One - it had been quite a while since I had actually read something serious and hard hitting without any hint of humor. Second, the story itself is so wonderfully twisted. Its one of those book where characters are written realistically, not in a clean cut way with clear motives, wants and preferences. Her people are muddy, they get confused, they forget, they lie, hide things and occasionally admit their weaknesses to themselves and others, even when they don't want to. 

I loved the book. Also, I was wrong when i said the book was devoid of any humor. The humor lies in the title itself. 

So, what reminded me of Butter today is a scene where the protagonist(ish) accepts that she has no control over the perceptions of her friends about her other friends (does this sentence make sense?). And she gives up, she allows herself to be removed from the scene when she wants to. I am sure I felt a pang of jealousy when I read that. Even if I go away, I cannot stop worrying. 

Friday, September 05, 2025

Of trees and lemongrass

A quote I came across a while ago:

Sometimes, if you’re lucky, there will be a tree outside your bedroom window. It is very important to romanticize this tree as much as possible.

Oh dear God, how this quote resonated with me. The Ashoka tree outside my window was one of my closest friends in high school. I felt comfortable sharing my worries about the board exams with it. And I knew it understood because it bloomed right around the exams, like wishing me good luck. I miss that tree.

I am sure the trees outside my window now are undoubtedly also equally handsome and good looking. But I am not able to relate to them as readily as I could back then. The same is also true with people. It used to be so easy to make friends with people you saw everyday. Some of those friendships are even alive today. But now, it is becoming harder and harder to really open up to new people. Maybe I am getting old and set in my ways. Maybe the world is changing and everyone is becoming warier, less inclined to connect to real people. Maybe we are getting our need for human connections fulfilled somewhere else- digitally. So obviously, it is not going so well for humanity. 

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The nest has been reused by another bird couple, they are a different species. I couldn't really identify it. But it is some kind of weaver bird. They took out blades of our lemongrass and tore bamboo leaves into thin string like pieces.. used them to weave a cave like dwelling. In the morning you can hear the hatchlings shouting.. :)

Friday, June 27, 2025

Parenting is a boiled egg

One thing that is becoming painstakingly clearer with every passing day is that as a parent, we have to let our kids make mistakes...at least some. I am picking my battles here.

Being a parent is hard. And mostly annoying as hell. I am dreading their teenage years :|

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There are a couple of pieces I have been meaning to paint for the last few days. I have been putting off starting the project because it looks a bit tricky and I am scared to get it wrong. But then, my vangoghthelife sent me a simple canvas by him. Sure it has his tell-tale strokes, an interesting perspective, and well executed colour scheme... but it is not very technical and yet manages to look so appealing. Well, there must be some genius hidden in it because managed to make me want to pick up the brushes.. I hope this "want" turns into a "done".

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P.S. We have a red vented bulbul nesting in our aparajita vine.

Friday, April 25, 2025

Wishing for -what- will make this better?

There are some emotions you don't readily share with the public. Actually, these are hidden away in some obscure recess of your own psyche, just to emerge when something truly despicable happens. 

Like it happened 3 days ago. An act of cowardice and sheer evil. First reaction (as spectators from far) is anger, then helplessness... followed by hatred. It is such an ugly emotion, and I hope nobody ever has to feel so. 

It reduces a sane human being to a diabolical creature. 

And I feel that in times like these, it is justified. 

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I need a "publish privately" feature on this blog. Maybe that will make me able to rant clearly. 

Thursday, April 17, 2025

Cosmic joker

Funny coincidence: every thursday at 5, T and I find ourselves driving towards the music class. On 90% of those days, that fevicol of songs plays on the radio - Light up, light up sketchers. I mean, the song is so bad, so, so bad. And it sticks :(

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Thursday, April 10, 2025

Poetry is the salt

I happened to read some verses from rashmirathi today. I have always loved this epic. Of course when I first read it, I was too young and naive to even begin to understand the sheer genius of this creation. So about 15 years ago, when I first saw the entire epic (which is seven parts with several chapters in each) on kavitakosh, I was truly blown away.

So, one of the remnants of the good old era of nice-internet is kavitakosh. As far as I know, its a not-for-profit venture run by volunteers. Please do visit. It hosts so many gems that we do not come across anymore. 

Rashmirathi has been permanently bookmarked on my browser ever since then. Every now and then, I do happen to read a verse or two and it never fails to amaze!

सच है, विपत्ति जब आती है, 
कायर को ही दहलाती है,

शूरमा नहीं विचलित होते,
क्षण एक नहीं धीरज खोते,

विघ्नों को गले लगाते हैं,
काँटों में राह बनाते हैं।