Friday, January 30, 2009

Friday is the fries day

Another weekend. 

And m totally vella this time. Seems unnatural. M actually at a loss, what will I do with so much time.

Got two books. Began reading this one called - Yajnaseni (pronounced as Ya-gya-se-nee). Its mahabharata from the eyes of Draupadi, also known as Panchali and Krishnaa

In mythology, women have always been wronged, cheated, treated unfairly and of course respected for going through all this. 

Sati, Ahilya, Mandodari.. 

Goddess Sita - after going through the pain of being abducted and tortured by the hands of the evil Ravana, her chastity was questioned and none other than her own husband made her go through the agnipariksha

And then there is Draupadi - The beautiful. Her birth was for a purpose - to avenge her father. The world remembers her as the woman with five husbands or worse, as the woman who caused mahabharata. 
Pause. Think for a while. Right from the begining, draupadi was the wronged one. First, she had no say in her marriage. She wasnt consulted before getting married to the five pandavas. Her husbands put her on stake, lost her and remained mute spectators while the Kauravas humiliated her. It was her love for lord Krishna which saved her, not her mighty husbands. 
And in the end, when she could not keep up the pace and fell while coing to the himalayas with her husbands, not a single one of them looked back. 

And to say she had five husbands.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Did it :)

After months and months of planning

preparing myself

deciding and then deciding against it

i finally did it


But, not without the ususal dose of nautanki :|

After the first piercing 

I fainted

then puked (eeww)

and then

like a true brave girl

went for the second one 



I hope it doesnt pain tomorrow

The weekend in pics

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

The Corbett Safari

Just checked in after the long long long weekend.. 

It was fun, it was adventurous, it was exciting.. 

It was.. Jim Corbett :)

Will post some pics soon. The better ones will take some time -they are on the other camera. Ohh and yes.. I loved the SLR. 

Saturday, January 24, 2009

The saree day

Ohh how I love a good productive day..

Got up, did some yoga(m getting pretty regular now :) ), attended classes (all 3), went to sector 14 and then.. 

attended Uma's sis' reception.. wearing a saree..

It must have been what.. three years since i wore it last.. I really love the dress. One feels so feminine and.. decked up, even if its s simple saree.. 

Feeling nice is one thing, however managing to wear it is a different thing altogether. If somebody asks me about the decor of the place, i will be clueless because all the time I was trying really hard not to trip over on my own dress.. I am sure I caught one or two aunties eyeing me in a funny way. I felt like a spaz.. 


I want to buy one really soon.

Friday, January 23, 2009

Ignorable crap

Getting up was so tough today.. 

Hectic weekend ahead. And I am worried again because nothing is planned yet.

And its surprising and unbelievable but we still have lots of work to do.. 


Started poga seriously.. 

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

And relief


thank God.

and everyone who wished well.. 

thank you

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Right said

Butterfly effect: An obscure american refuses to repay his mortage loan; My placement gets screwed

May destiny keep us warm

Hold up
Hold on
Dont be scared
Youll never change whats been and gone

May your smile (may your smile)
Shine on (shine on)
Dont be scared (dont be scared)
Your destiny may keep you warm

Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
Youll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Get up (get up)
Come on (come on)
Whyre you scared? (Im not scared)
Youll never change
Whats been and gone

Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
Youll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
Youll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Were all of us stars
Were fading away
Just try not to worry
Youll see us some day
Just take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out

- Oasis

Saturday, January 17, 2009

There shall be laughter after pain..


Friendly advices make their way through to this stupid head of mine. 

I realize thats its not "my fault", that it is not happening to "only me" and it will not be like this "forever"..

I also realized that my biggest fear is of being judged. 
But when I really thought about it, I remembered that people who matter wont mind a bit, and those who mind dont matter..

Decided: Monday night - I will start looking for alternatives. I'm sure there will be some. 
Or else, I will make some!

Felt a lot better today.

God bless us all.

Thursday, January 15, 2009

have seen better days

Never ever even in my darkest nightmares had I thought it would be like this..

Its like the gloom is in the air and weighing down our souls with every breath. Insane.. 

I cant bring myself to write, read, do anything meaningful.. funny movies dont help us anymore.
Even Sun doesnt work for long. 

Times change.. They did. And not for good. I am ready to bet anything that we are the best brains they ever had(or will have for a long time). We have everybody's word for that. 
I hope times change again. Soon.

Damn it. Why us?

Monday, January 12, 2009

Blue sky

Clear blue skies for as far as my eyes could see ( no tall bildings in sight)

Green meadows with cottages (and white wooden fences)

A narrow clear road (strictly for farm vehicles)

A creek

A bicycle

Ignorance is bliss

Another week begins.. 

I had a good weekend this time. Quiet and easy.. 

I discovered that I cant watch difficult(sad, heavy) movies anymore. I just cant see people suffering. Even when I know its not real. So all that is left for me to watch are stupid sitcoms and romantic chick flicks (which is not so bad).
I need some feel good stimulants. We all do. 
Nothing wrong with that. right??

And it was nice to know that poeple noticed :)

Tuesday, January 06, 2009

When everything else fails...

Sunlight helps

so does some wandering around.. looking at flowers, listening to kids

And a good read

Monday, January 05, 2009

Help yourself. Please..

Judging people leads to bad things. bad bad bad things.
Especially if you are upset yourself. Or if you are never in your right mind anyways.

It makes you sadder, bitter, angrier and of course it makes you lose your friends. Its like digging a hole around yourself and feeling really intelligent doing it.

I hope you realize this and help yourself.
Because nobody else can do it for you..

Sunday, January 04, 2009

It felt unfair not to mention this

I finished this book Eat Pray Love today..

A truly wonderful book by Elizabeth Gilbert. One that should be read by every woman who is in pain - to know that it is possible to end it; who is happy - to know how to multiply it manifold by spreading it around. 

And why it is a good idea to believe in oneself.. 

And why it is even a better idea to not let life bog u down by its intricacies. 

So, here I am, trying to smile in my liver.. 

(by the way.. I was kind of reluctant to write about this. My writing skills are hugely inadequate to do justice to this book)

Saturday, January 03, 2009

The one with all these I's

I hate it when people act like such jerks.. So self involved that you cant even see that you are being unfair.. 
And just because I hate them so much, I have decided not to be one like that. :) 
I so hope that I succeed.

And also, I have to work on my anger. I keep getting these bouts of anger from time to time. And it takes a while to cool down. The worst thing is that even though my stupid brain does not remember much of the relevent stuff, it does remember all the stuff that it is not supposed to. And so, the idiotic small person me keeps getting angry at old stuff.. and thats just silly.
I hope I improve.. 

I should have it as a resolution. :) haha

I am also seeking a quiet place for a while now. I think I need to meditate. Too many stray thoughts, need to calm down and breathe freely.

(p.s. I have decided to not treat 2009 as a new year.. 
I mean, I am just going to wish its better. Thats all.. otherwise I might get my hopes all high and I hate to see them crash..)

Thursday, January 01, 2009