Friendly advices make their way through to this stupid head of mine.
I realize thats its not "my fault", that it is not happening to "only me" and it will not be like this "forever"..
I also realized that my biggest fear is of being judged.
But when I really thought about it, I remembered that people who matter wont mind a bit, and those who mind dont matter..
Decided: Monday night - I will start looking for alternatives. I'm sure there will be some.
Or else, I will make some!
Felt a lot better today.
God bless us all.